Psalms of Mental Malaise

Chapter 7

Psalms of Mental Malaise

As many of my readers already know, I have struggled with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and related anxiety and depression for over 30 years. 

Click HERE to read about Dr. JJ's Past Experiences with OCD, Anxiety, and Depression.  

Because these issues have been such a significant part of my life, it makes sense the subject would make its way into my poetry. This chapter shares these poems. In creating and composing them, I have striven to provide an authentic purview into both the horrors I have experienced as well as the hope I have found in help and healing. Since none of us are perfectly healthy mentally and emotionally, it is my hope that these poems might provide some measure of insight and inspiration to all who read them.  

Coarsely Crossed

Coarsely crossed, the angst-filled smart
Of agony did fill my heart.
An outgrowth of my humbling path,
Bedecked with the Refiner's wrath,
That ripped my soul and taxed my mind,
Beat me through life's unending grind,
That was ordained to make a king,
Who after night is o'er will sing
A thousand praises to the Cause,
That aided an end to my flaws,
As to the realms of royal right,
I will transcend the cold, dark night,
And gratefully begin to see
The road into eternity's
A path that starts and ends with He,
And all between depends on We.

Pain's Glory

Once upon a night so dreary,
Passing by all weak and weary,
My face cast down, my eyes a'teary,
Grappling firm with fate.

The moonlight pulsates through my heart,
As mind and soul consumes the tart
And bitter, wrenching, poignant smart
Of life's incessant grate.

When shall it end? I plead in tears,
This grating toil that spans the years?
The answer comes: not til all fears
Are vanguished 'neath His will.

And even then some shall remain,
For it's what outlines joy so plain,
The God's themselves still feel pain,
When humankind choose ill.

There is no other way to feel,
The holy joy that's just as real
As pain, this paradox reveals
There is no other way.

Then let us bear with all our might,
The angst and toil amidst life's plight,
And never ever quit the fight,
Trusting what's in store.

Though faith and trust don't erase pain,
They do fuel existential gain,
And minus them you'll ne'er obtain
That sought-for Finish Line.

Though vic'try's blessing starts with you,
It comes down from a Friend that's true,
Whose power can lift, build, and renew,
And change your very vision.

Then press on through your preparatory
Stage, then wise, and filled with glory,
You'll someday guide another's story,
That's love's supremest mission (1). 

Trapped

Trapped!
I am trapped...
Imprisoned and
Held captive
Behind bars
Inside my brain.
Strapped to the tracks
Of an oncoming cerebral train,
Crying tearless tears of unrelenting pain.
While I can imagine that hope still exists,
My heart pounds and burns as I
Grit my teeth and clench my fists,
Trying to untie my stomach knots
And twists.
Squeezing my eyes shut
I silently scream!
While still clutching hold
Of my long-harbored dream
Of healing, freewheeling,
And dealing
A terminal blow
To the serial horror show.
As much as it smarts,
In my heart of hearts,
I know I have power
O'er life's delicate flower,
To hold on still longer
Through each crushing hour,
Yes somehow I know,
That I'll still scale the tower,
Through each small step forward,
My will makes the difference,
With God lifting still,
Though His help sometimes seems
Hell-bent to kill,
The last bit of life in my soul.
It's the great paradox
Of His saving Grace
At work.
But
Investing my best
I know
He'll do the rest
   For He,
      And me,
Yes we
Each have a key
To the double-locked cell
Of my captivity,
And someday,
In His own time
I
   Will
      Be
         Free!

Consternated Underneath

Consternated underneath
A soul that's ever burdened,
With all I am,
And all I'm not,
And all I yearn to be!

O please dear God do not forsake
My ever anxious mind,
Be always near me
Is my prayer,
And peace help me to find.

And yet, I seek not ever for
A terminus to trials,
My greatest friend
They tend to be,
I should embrace life's wiles.

Yes, give me full exposure to what
Will make me like Thee,
For that, dear God's
My fondest wish:
Thy Own dear Face to see.

Unbridled Emotions

Emotions are potions affecting my brain,
Emotions are notions that set off a train
Of thoughts:
Sometimes good,
And then equally bad,
Then circling 'round
Like a misguided fad,
Around and around,
They swirl fitfully,
Til I'm wound up inside
And plumb restless, you see,
It frustrates to know
That these passions are just
A falsified image—
A facadical crust,
That fails to provide me
With accurate feedback,
Of truth's whole completeness,
And sweetness doth lack.
No matter if my state is happy or glum,
My head winds it tight
As if wound round my thumb.
And desperately grasping,
I flail for the surface,
To free from unbridled thoughts
Worthless or priceless.
While throughout my soul,
I know deep down it's true,
That accurate measure
Fails to pass my view.
It's balance in all things
I surely must gain,
The stuff that wisdom brings,
I must now refrain
From seeing the world
Through a distorted lens,
And begin my peerage
I'll here make amends,
And learn to examine
The world as it is,
And then likewise program
My thoughts to align
Things the way that they are,
And re-route my ship,
To actually reach that star,
Then through patience and vigor
And focus and light,
My soul will grow bigger,
I'll find my true sight!

A Two-Edged Sword

OCD:
What has it done for me?
Is it my friend?
Or my dark enemy?
The answer
You see,
Though I've
Oft been its slave—
Pathological knave!—
Made me crave for the grave,
Yet somehow
It managed to
Set
   Me
      Free!
Yes it does rather seem
That my nightmare extreme,
Sometimes guised as a dream—
And a good one forsooth!
For in truth
I behold,
That for brain hygiene's gold,
I must work hard to mine,
Spending mountains of time,
Sweating tears as I pine
Many years 'ere I find,
That the cure for my mind,
So oft plagued by the grind,
Is just like that gold,
Mixed betwixt all the old
Common, cheap, rocky ore,
Whose plentiful store
Hides all worth
Worth pursuing,
Investing,
Accruing;
There's no need for
Stewing,
For Freedom's
Now mine,
And ever can be
Into eternity
If I'll never
Forget
That the price
Involves sweat, and
Avoiding regret,
And that I'm only set
When I see I'm not yet.
And then rightly perceive
That in time I'll receive
A most pleasant reprieve
That's as grand, I believe
As it badly began,
As if Alchemy's claim
Held water—not sand.
So I'll keep on the fight,
Through each day,
And each night,
With a calm, tranquil might
That affirms I'm all right.
And ne'er e'er forgetting,
The puzzling piece
Of the pie
Peck calls Grace—
So truly amazing
To see it's pow'r
Razing
My mind's ills
All erasing.
Plus there's help from my pills,
My shrink,
And SAL to boot
But shoot...
What a pathetic
Hoot
I would be
On my own,
All though now I'm full grown,
And have carefully sown
Seeds of thoughtful decision,
Crafting nobly a vision:
Important!
Yes, all,
But lest I should fall,
I will never
Forget
The Source
That doth heal
With salve that is real—
As real as You,
And Me,
And OCD,
And the help,
And the cure—or
The management—
Here and
Now,
As I await its ultimate
Eradication
THEN...
By Him
As long as
   I
      Do
         My
            Part.

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—Dr. JJ

June 28, 2023

Palm Beach Gardens, Florida, USA

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Notes: 

1. This poem's prosody was influenced by Edgar Allen Poe's, The Raven.

Dr. JJ Returns to Therapy

Yesterday, I returned to professional counseling (AKA: psychotherapy) for the first time since 2018.

And I'm so glad that I did!

With my wife's work benefits, a little homework on my end of things, and by the Grace of Serendipity—I have been fortunate to find an outstanding counselor who I believe has the knowledge, skills, experience, intuition, disposition, and temperament to help me take additional steps toward the GROWTH and FREEDOM I seek in my life and career.

After just one session, I already feel my mind, heart, and soul trending back in a more positive direction than it has been going in recent weeks and months. More importantly, my therapist has already equipped me with some new ideas and skills that I have been able to apply immediately—to my benefit! Based on my past experiences, I feel confident I will continue to get out of therapy what I am willing to put into it in sessions to come. Therapy, after all, is a lot like everything else in life—we all really do reap what we sow in the end.  

Virtual Counseling Carries a Similar Dynamic to
in-person therapy, but with an added benefit of being
able to engage from the comfort of your own home.

For the first time in my counseling history, I am also experimenting with a virtual route. The idea of working with a virtual counselor over Zoom was new to me as I've always done in-person counseling in the past. But my wife's health benefits come with some great virtual counseling options, and I decided it was worth giving it a shot.

After one appointment, I really like it!

I discovered in my first session that a highly personal face-to-face dynamic still exists in virtual counseling, but both the counselor and I have the added benefit of being able to enjoy the comfort and privacy of our own home offices throughout the process.

What an AMAZING world we live in!

Truly, the COVID-19 pandemic has done much to move our culture to increasingly embrace a variety of virtual experiences and opportunities, both personally and professionally. Some of these experiences and opportunities have been negative; but many of them are full of potentially positive and productive possibilities, and virtual counseling is clearly one of them.   

Dr. JJ has suffered from symptoms of OCD for most of his life.

As regular readers of the Freedom Focused blog are aware, I have struggled throughout my life with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) along with depression and other issues that have accompanied it.

I first started experiencing symptoms of OCD when I was in elementary school back in the early 1990s. Later, in 1997, as a junior in high school, I met with a psychiatrist for the first time and received an official OCD diagnosis.

Since that time, I have met with 12 different professionals and semi-professionals who were either college-aged, student-counselors-in-training (2), licensed therapists (3) psychologists (1), psychiatrists (4), or nurse practitioners authorized to prescribe medication (2). And that is to say nothing of the lay-counselors and spiritual leaders and mentors who have further assisted me with a variety of beneficial counsel, friendly encouragement, and genuine therapy along the way. I will always be grateful to this unofficial milieu of mental health laypersons as well.

A BIG thanks also goes out to my wife, Lina, and that Higher Power, since They have been the most supportive and helpful of all. There's an old saying that goes like this: "Your true friends are the ones who know all about you and still like and/or love you!" My wife is undoubtedly my best friend, greatest supporter, and closest confidante—and a real gem for knowing all about me and still liking/loving me! I'm so grateful God blessed me with her—and so many other Serendipitous graces and mercies along my often challenging and circuitous personal life and professional career.   

Click HERE to read about Dr. JJ's Lifelong Journey with Mental Illness

I just started counseling with my 13th therapist since 1997.
Thirteen (13) is my lucky number and has
special meaning at Freedom Focused.

This is the 8th time I have entered psychotherapy over the course of my life. My newest professional therapist marks number thirteen (13), which is cool because the number 13 is my lucky number. This unique number also has a special place and meaning throughout my construction of Freedom Focused as an organization, including its Corporate Constitution.

But I digress...

Why have I returned to therapy after four years of doing quite well with my mental and emotional health? 

Good Question!  

The answer is that I have found myself STUCK in a few patterns of behavior that have plagued and stymied me in the past—areas where I had made a lot of progress, but whose symptoms have returned sufficiently to motivate me to revisit that place where I have found so much help and hope (and made so much progress) in the past; namely, professional counseling or PSYCHOTHERAPY. 

Based on my past experiences, I had already accepted the fact—and to a certain extent expected—that I would most likely need to return to therapy at some point in the future. That had simply been the pattern of the past, and was therefore likely to continue. The question was always more a matter of when than if.  

Dr. JJ's right hand as of yesterday, with two fingers bandaged

and a third (pinkie) showing slight signs of wear and tear.

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One of the more prominent areas I have struggled a great deal with lately, and which has motivated my return to therapy, is DERMATILLOMANIA. 

Dermatillomania is an OCD-related skin picking/pulling disorder that has afflicted me to varying degrees since grade school and with which I continue to experience great difficulty in managing, much less overcoming.

It's stressful and embarrassing to have multiple band-aids on my fingers at any given point in time because I just can't stop nibbling and picking away at them. It's a gross, puerile, and admittedly uncouth obsession and compulsion; but it's REAL, and I need help in overcoming it.

I am not alone in this affliction of dermatillomania. Many others suffer similarly.

In fact, I recently found myself in a highly formal meeting with a group of well-educated, experienced, and successful professionals and I couldn't help but notice that the highest ranking member of the group had the tell-tale signs of dermatillomania on at least four (4) of his digits! As I observed him in the meeting, I felt a genuine wave of compassion and empathy flow out of me and towards him because I am well acquainted with the misery and frustration he is likely experiencing with his own dermatillomania.

As for myself, I've had as many as nine of my ten fingers and thumbs bandaged at one time in just the past few months. While my affliction is good for makers of band-aids and neosporin (SMILE), the practice is a pesky affliction that I just can't seem to get a handle on by myself; therefore, the time has come to seek out professional help for the issue.

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One of my all-time favorite authors is M. Scott Peck, M.D., the author of a world-famous book published in 1978 (one year before I was born) called, The Road Less Traveled. I have a half-dozen or so books by Dr. Peck in my personal library. I cherish his work and enthusiastically advocate it to others. Along with Dr. Stephen R. Covey's books, Dr. Peck's writing has profoundly influenced my own work as a writer and thinker.    

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In one of Peck's later books, The Road Less Traveled and Beyond: Spiritual Growth in an Age of Anxiety (Touchstone, 1997), he penned something that has always stuck with me (no pun intended).

Wrote Peck:

"People have frequently asked me, 'Dr. Peck, ... how do you know when [you need] to go into [or return to] therapy?'"

"My answer to them is: 'When you're stuck. There's no need for therapy when you're clearly growing well without it. But when [you're] not growing, when [you're] stuck and spinning [your] wheels, [that's when you need to seek out (or return to) therapy, a process which involves] striving toward a psychological and spiritual maturity that results in real personal power. ... [Thus] therapy's purpose is to help people become more aware so that they can think more clearly and live their lives more effectively and efficiently." (1)

Working with mental illness is typically quite
different than working with physical illnesses and injuries.

As is evident in my own lifelong experiences with mental illness, I have come a long way from where I once stood as an OCD-ridden, angst enflamed, woefully befuddled seventh grader at Poston Jr. High School in Mesa, Arizona in 1993—a lad who found himself gravely afflicted and utterly mystified by the unexpected and vicious mental malaise that had so suddenly and savagely invaded his brain.

Indeed, there is no doubt that I have made enormous progress with my mental hygiene over the years; that is the good news.   

But as I also made clear in my Personal Narrative about OCD and Depression, learning to manage mental illness is often quite different than caring for and rehabilitating a broken arm, leg, or other treatable physical malady. In the latter, physical examples, as long as you are properly treated and cared for, you will typically return to full health and strength in a timely manner following a physical illness or mishap.

Caring for one's mental health is usually a very different story. 

While total healing of a mental health issue is possible and does on occasion occur, a more common trajectory for psychological challenges involves a long-term journey that inevitably includes ups-and-downs, highs-and-lows, and ebbs-and-flows. Instead of labeling a mental issue or emotional struggle as being "over," "done," "finished," "healed," or "cured," it is usually wiser—and more accurate—to apply terms such as "improving," "progressing," "managed," and "under control" on the growth side of things and "declining," "relapsing," "revisiting," or "backtracking" when discussing backward steps, which are almost always part of the long-term growth process.    

It'd be nice and convenient if mental health issues could be
properly addressed by simply pushing the right button.
But that, of course, is usually not how it works.

Framing one's mental issues or struggles in this way is almost always the more realistic viewpoint to take. Moreover, it makes it easier to humble yourself and return to therapy when the need arises—and in my experience, the need to return to therapy has arisen (on average) every 4-5 years, no matter how much progress I may have made in the past.

As experienced and well-practiced as I am at seeking help for a wide array of challenges and difficulties in my life and career, it still isn't an easy thing to do. Doing so requires both COURAGE and HUMILITY; but it's the only viable option if you want to continue growing as an individual and team member and expanding your freedom both personally and professionally.

Because I love and value growth, freedom, and my family (and other) relationships, I really don't have any choice but to take this step whenever and wherever it is authentically required. I encourage YOU to do the same. Such actions and practices are, after all, a hallmark of authentic and proactive SELF-ACTION LEADERS.

If money is not an issue, don't be afraid to seek out appropriate and relevant professional assistance. And don't be afraid to interview your counselor as closely as he or she will interview you. Then, if you don't feel comfortable with who you are working with, seek out somebody else who will be a better fit.

Finding the right fit in counseling is an essential variable in maximizing optimal outcomes. Therefore, don't be afraid to let your therapist go and seek out another if he or she is not a good fit.    

One of Dr. JJ's discounted therapy receipts from his college-days

If money is an issue, do some research and see if you can find some more affordable counseling options in your community. For example, the most regular and intense therapy I ever engaged in was during my college years—when I was typically dead broke (and bouncing checks) financially. But I was able to find a counseling center at a local university that provided therapy for only $15 per session (or free if I couldn't afford the $15) if I was willing to work with some college-aged students who were in-training to become professional counselors. While these "Student Therapists" may not have been officially licensed yet, they were energetic, enthusiastic, and eager to help me—and they did help me a great deal. Having also worked with several licensed professionals, I can say from my own experience that the semi-professionals were nearly as good, if not as good (and sometimes better) than some of the professionals.  

If money is an issue and you cannot locate more affordable counseling options, then reach out to a trusted family member, friend, teacher, mentor, coach, or spiritual advisor. Over the years I have had even more lay-counselors than I have had professional counselors. From my parents and siblings to a variety of other individuals I trusted and held in high esteem, I have rarely shied away from seeking out help when and where I needed it. I credit these outreaches for helping me to get to where I am today.

We all need a helping hand and an upward lift
from time-to-time in our lives and careers.

I recognize that reaching out to someone else for help is not easy. In fact, it's hard! But it's sooooooooooooooooooo worth it for the growth and freedom that awaits you on the other side of COURAGE and HUMILITY.

Despite all my past experiences in counseling, I still felt anxious about seeking help this latest go-round. And I also felt nervous at the beginning of my first session with my new counselor. But like most nerve-wracking experiences in life, such anxiety tends to go way down once we are engaged in the process. Thus, my own nervous feelings about this latest round of therapy began melting away after the first few minutes of my first session. The rest of the time I found myself focused on getting to know my counselor, enjoying the process, and feeling better—and more hopeful—for thus engaging.   

All my life I have held a deep conviction that my life matters and that I am here on this Earth for a variety of important purposes and reasons. Since our beliefs absolutely drive our thoughts, attitudes and actions, you can imagine how powerful this belief has been in my life and career. 

Another conviction I hold deeply is that you and your life matters and that YOU are likewise here on this Earth for a variety of important purposes and reasons. It is my sincere hope and prayer that reading this blog—and any other blog that Freedom Focused ever publishes—will strengthen your belief of this same, great truth. 

We all feel STUCK sometimes.
When a self-action leader feels STUCK,
he or she proactively seeks out help to get unstuck.

I further hope and pray that if you are struggling and feel stuck—like I have felt so many times throughout my life and career (including at this present moment)—that you will begin TODAY to cultivate the courage and humility to do whatever it takes to begin becoming unstuck. And if that requires you seek out the help of another, and/or a professional, and/or a Higher Power, I encourage you to swallow your pride and stubbornness and seek earnestly after that help. I promise you that if you will, you will begin to experience a gradual transformation in your life that will be aided by a variety of powers both seen and unseen (Grace/Serendipity) that will greatly augment your personal and professional growth and freedom. This will, in-turn, enhance and improve the quality of your life and career in ways that seem unimaginable right now.

I know this is true because I have experienced it over-and-over-and-over again in my own life and career. And now I'm back in therapy myself—preparing myself to take another small step (or perhaps even a giant leap) in my own mental hygiene and existential growth.  And the possibilities of that growth and progress motivate and excite me!

What is possible for YOU in your own life and career as you apply Self-Action Leadership and seek out the help of others as needed? 

Only ACTION can tell that story.

     How is your story going to end?

          What are you waiting for?

Get moving TODAY!    

—Dr. JJ

June 22, 2022

Palm Beach Gardens, Florida, USA

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1.  Peck, M.S. (1997). The Road Less Traveled and Beyond: Spiritual Growth in an Age of Anxiety. New York, NY: Touchstone. Pages 76-78.  

Self-Action Leadership & Mental Health

We often have very little insight into the
depth of other people's inner struggles.  

In the quiet heart is hidden

Sorrow that the eye can’t see. [1]

Throughout history, tremendous stigmas have surrounded issues of mental illness.  Unlike a broken bone, a lacerated limb, or other physical ailments discernible to the eye, it is often difficult—or even impossible—to determine precisely what is going on in someone's heart and head.

In comparison to physical injury and illness, mental misfortune and malaise constitute a profoundly enigmatic science, which, despite all of our progress in the field, often gets the best of many patients and clinicians throughout society.  Recent tragedies involving mass shootings and other violence have led to calls for increased allocations of time, effort, and resources to address the pandemic of mental illness.  Freedom Focused generally supports these initiatives.  In doing so, however, we wish to issue a few important caveats.

First, it is important to draw a clear distinction between diagnosable mental illness and bona fide evil.  There is a difference between the two.  Many postmodernists disagree with this absolute distinction.  They generally dislike the term "evil" because its presence in the dictionary interferes with their philosophy that right and wrong don't really exist in any objective, concrete sense.

To a postmodernist, fiends like Hitler, Mussolini, Pol Pot, Saddam Hussein—and in more recent times, Adam Lanza, Dylan Roof, and Jihadi John—are not necessarily evil people.  Rather, they are mentally ill persons who are struggling with family, social, or economic issues that contribute to their propensity to lash out violently against innocent victims.

Freedom Focused disagrees vehemently with this notion.  While these demons in human form may indeed suffer from mental illness and a variety of other deep issues, their actions—however you try and spin it—are diabolically evil, and insofar as they choose to commit such heinous crimes, they choose to become evil themselves.

While we must never cease our efforts to discover the scientific realities of mental illness, we must likewise refrain from making the catastrophic error of associating it with evil as if the two were one and the same.  One may certainly influence the other, but they are by no means synonymous terms.

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Second, it is important to understand a common misnomer that exists among the general populace with regards to mental illness.  The error I speak of involves the notion that mental illness affects only a small percentage of the human race and afflicts the population in strict black-or-white dichotomies—meaning a person is either mentally healthy (or stable) or he or she is mentally ill (or troubled).

In reality, no one in the world is perfectly sane.  Likewise, no one is completely deranged.

Instead, ALL of us exist along a continuum of mental health.  This continuum ranges from utter psychosis on the far left side to perfect mental health on the far right side, with a wide spectrum of varying types and degrees of neuroses in between.  As such, you can rightly argue that while none of us is entirely nuts, all of us struggles to one degree or another with our own mental hygiene.  At least that is what the esteemed psychiatrist and best-selling author, M. Scott Peck has suggested.

According to Peck, the “tendency to avoid problems and the emotional suffering inherent in them is the primary basis of all human mental illness [and] since most of us have this tendency to a greater or lesser degree, most of us are mentally ill to a greater or lesser degree, lacking complete mental health” [2].

At first glance, such a statement may be provocative to some.  It may even be offensive to those prone to affixing negative stigmas to mental illness, or others who may be deeply mired in the morass of their own cognitive distortions about life and themselves.  Nevertheless, Peck’s assertion is technically accurate based on his own definition of mental illness, which, once again is: “[the] tendency to avoid problems and the emotional suffering inherent in them.”

If we are to grow as self-action leaders, it is essential that we come to see things as they really are—meaning as objectively as possible—and not merely as we would wish they would be, or even worse, as we may have deluded ourselves to believe they are, when in actuality they are quite different. Effective self-action leaders must face up to the facts—the reality—of their problems if they are ever to solve them [3].

The SIX components of Existential Growth

Please don't misunderstand, Dr. Peck and I are not trying to call you or your loved ones mentally ill or "Crazy."  There is a BIG difference between having a clinically diagnosable mental disorder and merely struggling with a cognitive distortion or two.  What we are attempting to do is to call your attention to the reality that everyone can progress to higher levels of mental health and hygiene than what we presently occupy.

The journey to the land of complete mental health is a never-ending journey which we will not finish in our lifetimes.  Just like physical, emotional, social, spiritual, moral, and Existential Growth, we each have the opportunity to progress in our own mental health a bit at a time over the course of our lives.  And none of us will ever achieve perfection in this world.

Because none of us is completely healthy mentally, we can all benefit from the principles and practices outlined in the Self-Action Leadership Theory & Model.  This is because an overriding purpose of the SAL Theory & Model is to help individual self-leaders become self-action leaders by making a commitment to personal and professional honesty, transparency, and integrity—a commitment which can create the building blocks of growth, success, and holistic health, including mental health.

Despite the fact that no one is perfectly healthy mentally, the vast majority of human beings do NOT have a clinically diagnosable mental disorder.  A minority of us, however, do.  I say "us" because as you may already know, I myself have a clinically diagnosable mental disorder.  It is called obsessive-compulsive disorder, or just OCD for short.

A picture of me
a few years after
contracting clinical OCD.

I was diagnosed with OCD in 1997.  In the intervening two decades, and for several years before I was officially diagnosed, I struggled mightily with this malaise of my mind.  In addition to my OCD, I have also suffered comorbid depression as well (it is common for depression to accompany anxiety disorders like OCD).

Because of my personal experiences with OCD and depression, I know what it feels like—from a clinical standpoint—to be mentally ill.  I have personal experience with thoughts and emotions that produce the sense that I am teetering on the edge of insanity.  It is not a pleasant place to reside.  Indeed, there is a reason I named the chapter in my book that retells my experiences with mental illness, "OCD is Hell." The bad news is that I have struggled greatly, and to varying degrees still do struggle, with my own mental health.

The good news is that I was able to obtain the knowledge and secure the help I needed to successfully manage my disorder.  The key word in this statement is manage.  Note that I didn't say I am completely healed or that I never experience any lingering symptoms of OCD or depression; I do—on a daily basis.  However, I am about 80% better than I used to be, and that kind of progress has enabled and empowered me to be happy in my personal life and successful in my professional life.  In other words, while I do have OCD and depression, and while I will likely continue to struggle with lingering effects of both for the rest of my life, I don't have to let these demons of the mind destroy me.  I can ultimately win the battle for my own mental health.  I can remain the sovereign ruler of my mind and heart.  I do not have to abdicate my throne to an internal foe that crops up against my will.

A saner, wiser me
nearly 2-decades later.

This realization has generated enormous power in my life, relationships, and career.  But it didn't just happen by magic.  A lot of honesty, humility, and hard work were required.  It wasn't easy, but it was possible.  Furthermore, the results were so staggeringly successful in my life that I decided to design a Theory and Model of self-leadership and write a book to clearly explicate the process so that others might unlock the secret to overcoming their own personal demons—whether they involve struggles of the mind, heart, spirit, body, relationships, or even existential issues.

My book is called Self-Action Leadership: The Key to Personal, Professional, & Global Freedom.  It shares intimate details of my experiences with OCD and other life challenges.  More importantly, it tells the story and outlines the steps of how I overcame these obstacles to find security, love, prosperity, and fulfillment.

If you or someone you know struggles with mental illness of any kind—and remember, we all do to varying degrees—I invite you to read this book and share it with others.  While doing so cannot replace vital help that is available from professional counselors, psychiatrists, good habits of health, nutrition, and exercise, God (including spiritual and religious approaches), and medication (when necessary and professionally and legally prescribed), it can serve as a potentially ideal self-help manual that will empower you to further extend the reach of your own personal power to learn, grow, and eventually overcome whatever challenges of the mind (or otherwise) that you face in your life.

Click HERE to read about Dr. Jordan Jensen's battle with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

Click HERE to read Part II of Dr. Jensen's battle with OCD

Click HERE to buy Dr. Jordan Jensen's book — SELF-ACTION LEADERSHIP

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Note: This article is one of SIX articles in a special series dedicated to different AUDIENCES that Freedom Focused specifically targets with Self-Action Leadership training. We invite leaders and managers of these different audiences to click on links below to read the articles pertaining to your field or constituency.

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Click HERE to access article for  EDUCATORS  (Administrators, Teachers, & Staff)

Click HERE to access article for  STUDENTS & INDIVIDUALS

Click HERE to access article for PARENTS & FAMILIES

Click HERE to access article for ELECTED OFFICIALS, LEADERS, & ROLE MODELS

Click HERE to access article for PERSONS dealing with MENTAL ILLNESS


References:

[1] Hymn #220, Hymns of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (1985, p. #220).
[2] Peck, M.S. (1978). The Road Less Traveled: A New Psychology of Love, Traditional Values and Spiritual Growth. New York, NY: Touchstone. Pages 16-17.
[3] This paragraph (and the one preceding it) is taken nearly verbatim from pages 20-21 of Volume 1 of Jordan Jensen's Doctoral Dissertation, available for free download at URL: http://www.freedomfocused.com/Intellectual_Material.html

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SELF-ACTION LEADERSHIP is the key catalyst for initiating transformational leadership that lasts in any organization. The truth of the matter really is that simple; and the transformation of organizations through the holistic development of individuals really is that difficult—yet altogether possible for anyone willing to invest the time, effort, and sacrifice required to achieve authentic, transformational results.

Unlike any training program that has ever preceded it, Self-Action Leadership provides a single vehicle wherewith individual self-leaders can discover—and then act—upon the great truth that HOLISTIC personal development and growth spanning the mental, moral, spiritual, physical, emotional, and social elements of our individual natures is within the grasp of each one of us.

Note: Freedom Focused is a non-partisan, for-profit, educational corporation. As such, we do not endorse or embrace political figures. We do, however, comment from time-to-time on historical or political events that provide pedagogical backdrops to illuminating principles contained in the SAL Theory & Model.

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An Era-Shifting Speech on Education (II)

PART 2: Dr Jensen's Self-Action Leadership Transformation

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Marathons & Mental Illness

I recently heard a talk in Church about a runner's experience training for, and then running, a marathon.

The runner's name is Justin Kroff of Spring, Texas. He began by describing the difficult training regimen to prepare for his big day, including 20 mile runs beginning at 3:30 a.m. He also described the loneliness and isolation of those solitary runs. Indeed, training for a marathon was often a LONELY experience.